Panic mode!!

So today the panic set in.

Currently Im studying for my childcare qualification, whilst simultaneously studying for a degree and working. Im not naive in knowing that so many people juggle all these things plus more. All i can say is hats off to you if you’re managing all of the above!

My childcare qualification was something I had started whilst working in a preschool, however I now nanny privately. I have to say this has changed the dynamics of my studies dramatically. Working independently looking after multiple children means I no longer have that constant support network of fellow colleagues to fall back on or simply ask for a hand. Its also limited the amount of free time I have to actually sit down with my head in the books.

Today the sudden realisation of how little time I have left hit me like freight train. I sat and thought ‘you’re going to fail this miserably’ and couldn’t shake the feeling of already being disappointed with myself.

I had my usual morning workout which sedated some of the panic. But the nagging feeling of failure was lingering still. So, I got down to it. I set myself up with my books, laptop, and a large cup of tea…ready to put my brain in to gear!

(Woah…dirty screen 😕)
It took a good hour for me to get into a rhythm, but I managed to complete quite alot in the 5 hours I spent on my work. Sometimes I forget that actually my mind works well under pressure, its just the overall anxiety that sets me off balance.

I need to find tips and techniques for motivation and time managment when it comes to studying. How do you manage your focus? Any wisdom welcome 😊

Currently reading…

As of late I haven’t been able to immerse myself in my all time favourite hobby as much as I would like. Its left me with a book shaped whole in my heart 😔.

Nothing feels quite as satisfying as being engrossed in a story that has your imagination running wild, or a character who entices you to into their world, leaving you wanting more, page after page.

I have quite an eclectic taste when it comes to books. But my heart lies with classic literature. I enjoy the challenge of understanding the archaic language, the history of the time, the underlining substance that is often more compelling than that of modern  (HOW in the name of all things sacred is 50 shades of grey one of the biggest selling books of all time!!).

Currently I have tasked myself with reading ‘The Divine Comedy‘ by Dante. This epic narrative poem is the spiritual journey taken by Dante through the 9 circles of hell called ‘Inferno‘, ‘Purgatorio‘ and ‘Paradiso‘.

Excuse my furless baby…

Although reading a text as complex  as ‘Commedia‘ – as it was in its orginal Italian- is a real challenge at times. The overall sense of spirituality is overwhelming. Not only that, but it is completely fascinating to learn through Dante’s writing about the political strife between the Guelf and Ghibelline fractions and the history of Italy at the time, around the 1300’s.

Currently Dante is being accompanied by Virgil, a contemporary of Dante’s, who he holds in high regard. His journey is depicting the different ‘sins’ commited by those who have passed on, and where this places them in the 9 circles. Throughout he is shown the violent, often torturous punishments those sinners have to endure for eternity. The level of depravity is dependant on the sin of the individuals (such as adultery, or not commiting to believing in God one way or the other).

As this is such a long read, I may add a later post with my thoughts at the end.

Id love further reading suggestions if you have any!

Tell me…whats your current read?